It has been quite a few weeks since my last post which I apologize for. There was nothing more I wanted to do then blog my heart away, but alas life is a busy one. Three weeks have passed and many things have occurred. I finished my first semester of baking school and am now on summer holiday. It was a stressful last week of school with all the studying and practicing I needed to do, yet life had me stuck at work. I ended up passing all my coursing, but with that said the tension of it arose and I was still left a bit vexed by my ever changing thoughts. I have always been someone who only did things that made me happy. Baking does make me happy, but like I said before it is not the only thing I want to do with my life. Writing on this blog makes me really happy, and my creative side is once again reawakened. I have always enjoyed designing and creating new things so writing and coming up with new ideas for this blog excites me. I fear that this love overpowers my love for baking. Even if that is true, I have decided to no longer worry about it. I will always follow whatever dreams and goals that make me happy, and if baking doesn't make the cut, oh well, it was an experience. I am only 21 so I have plenty of time ahead of me to figure out what I want and do not want for my life.
Recently openings for employment came up at my local Ulta, which of course sparked my interest. Many people around me told me to jump for it where my family pointed judgment and harsh words. Their main complaint was that my current job pays me to well to leave for a lesser paying job. I frankly cant understand why that has to be an issue. No job you start will ever pay a great wage at first you have to work for it. And secondly, my current job makes me way too unhappy anymore to stick around. I haven't any interest in tools so standing around surrounded by something I have no input on drives me absolutely ape. Not only that, but even though I have worked there for four years, I am stuck at the register all day even though I am trained to do other things. I feel like a robot all day, telling people to have a nice day while, I try to remain sane. I have opted to apply for the new job even though the pay will be different. To be surrounded by something I enjoy and if I say so myself know a lot about, will make me more happy then money ever could.
Dealing with all this can be stressful but having people that matter and help are always a plus. But what will not help is people who are a rain cloud of negativity. For a while now I have taken in account to who and what makes me happy. Passive aggressive people can be stressful and no one should have to deal with that. I have never been someone who likes conflict, but If I am asked advice on a situation I always try to see where they are coming from and give them clear and honest advice. Sometimes it works out fine and sometimes they are really abrasive to me. I always remind myself to not let it get to me. I tried my best and that is all I can do. I try to get myself into a different headspace to see the other side. Exploring different views is a good thing. Sometimes people don't see that the same way and I have to just let them keep on doing what they want even if I can not understand it myself. I recently read a brilliant article in my favorite magazine Darling, from it was called "Seeing Double: The Company we attract". It was a beautiful piece exploring the company we surround ourselves with, and the positive and negative side effects it has. My favorite part of the article stated that data suggested the groups of friends, acquaintances, work colleges, etc and how we can infect each other. The author went on to talk about the company she kept and surrounded herself with had a direct effect on her energy and even her behavior. She noticed every time she spent time with certain people she would be complaining and acting cynical about the world. She subconsciously mirrored her friends negative attitude in order to connect with them. She realized that her usual easy going cheery self was turning into a grump. She didn't want to continue living that way. And who would? She regained her cheery self and the people continued to rain on her and everyone else's parade. She then realized that she could still love and care for those certain people, but that didn't mean they should automatically be apart of her life all the time. I loved reading it because I related with it just like anyone would during there lives. I am getting older and I am starting to see who really matters and makes me a better person. Life to me has always been like riding on a train. Sometimes it is smooth riding, and sometimes it is rough and bumpy. You make stops and switch to different rails. I like to remind myself that change is fine and it is okay to take a different path and onto a new life even if that means letting certain parts of it behind. Life is not forever and I want to spend enjoying ever second of the limited amount of time we are given doing what makes me happy. So I always and will forever try to be mindful to how I spend it. I try to approach certain things mindfully and maintain the things that only further me on a good, peaceful path. That can be from changing jobs, career choices, and friendships. But I will always remember there is something good in everyday.
Recently openings for employment came up at my local Ulta, which of course sparked my interest. Many people around me told me to jump for it where my family pointed judgment and harsh words. Their main complaint was that my current job pays me to well to leave for a lesser paying job. I frankly cant understand why that has to be an issue. No job you start will ever pay a great wage at first you have to work for it. And secondly, my current job makes me way too unhappy anymore to stick around. I haven't any interest in tools so standing around surrounded by something I have no input on drives me absolutely ape. Not only that, but even though I have worked there for four years, I am stuck at the register all day even though I am trained to do other things. I feel like a robot all day, telling people to have a nice day while, I try to remain sane. I have opted to apply for the new job even though the pay will be different. To be surrounded by something I enjoy and if I say so myself know a lot about, will make me more happy then money ever could.
Dealing with all this can be stressful but having people that matter and help are always a plus. But what will not help is people who are a rain cloud of negativity. For a while now I have taken in account to who and what makes me happy. Passive aggressive people can be stressful and no one should have to deal with that. I have never been someone who likes conflict, but If I am asked advice on a situation I always try to see where they are coming from and give them clear and honest advice. Sometimes it works out fine and sometimes they are really abrasive to me. I always remind myself to not let it get to me. I tried my best and that is all I can do. I try to get myself into a different headspace to see the other side. Exploring different views is a good thing. Sometimes people don't see that the same way and I have to just let them keep on doing what they want even if I can not understand it myself. I recently read a brilliant article in my favorite magazine Darling, from it was called "Seeing Double: The Company we attract". It was a beautiful piece exploring the company we surround ourselves with, and the positive and negative side effects it has. My favorite part of the article stated that data suggested the groups of friends, acquaintances, work colleges, etc and how we can infect each other. The author went on to talk about the company she kept and surrounded herself with had a direct effect on her energy and even her behavior. She noticed every time she spent time with certain people she would be complaining and acting cynical about the world. She subconsciously mirrored her friends negative attitude in order to connect with them. She realized that her usual easy going cheery self was turning into a grump. She didn't want to continue living that way. And who would? She regained her cheery self and the people continued to rain on her and everyone else's parade. She then realized that she could still love and care for those certain people, but that didn't mean they should automatically be apart of her life all the time. I loved reading it because I related with it just like anyone would during there lives. I am getting older and I am starting to see who really matters and makes me a better person. Life to me has always been like riding on a train. Sometimes it is smooth riding, and sometimes it is rough and bumpy. You make stops and switch to different rails. I like to remind myself that change is fine and it is okay to take a different path and onto a new life even if that means letting certain parts of it behind. Life is not forever and I want to spend enjoying ever second of the limited amount of time we are given doing what makes me happy. So I always and will forever try to be mindful to how I spend it. I try to approach certain things mindfully and maintain the things that only further me on a good, peaceful path. That can be from changing jobs, career choices, and friendships. But I will always remember there is something good in everyday.